I achieved a milestone today, and no this isn’t an April Fool’s prank. I’ve lost 50 pounds over the past 16 months!
I’m celebrating this, but with a bit of reservation. There is a lot of judgment attached to bodies. Women more than men experience this judgment, and that’s not ok. Even well-meaning comments can hurt, heaping shame on people who never chose to be over-weight. Similarly, celebrations of weight-loss can contribute to a narrative of personal success/failure that misses the larger picture of what happens when someone loses or gains weight.
A particularly toxic element in all this is that a person’s weight is largely viewed to be a personal triumph or personal failure. That’s the bit that gets the most emphasis in the stories we tell ourselves about weight-gain or weight-loss. Having a healthy weight is seen as a sign of personal virtue.
I do think that personal responsibility can play a role in weight gain/loss. But honestly, I see other factors having a far bigger impact.
I live in a city that is walkable. Public transportation makes it easy to get to the places to which I can’t walk. These factors make it easier to weave physical activity into the day. A quick trip to the supermarket becomes “physical activity.” I’m not responsible for creating those conditions that make it easier to stay active.
I earn enough money to afford a membership at the local gym/pool. Is my income something that I achieved? Sure, partly. But, honestly, my money comes from donations from generous supporters who care about my work. (If you’re interested in becoming a supporter, you can find more information here) And, while I have done real work to build and maintain these relationships, fundraising isn’t exactly a gift of mine. The fact that I can afford to go the the gym honestly has more to do with you than with me. So many people can’t afford these sorts of luxuries.
I live in a place where fresh fruits and vegetables are cheaper than the unhealthy alternatives. I didn’t create the economic policies that resulted in this reality. I’d love to see the US Farm Bill restructured in a way that made healthy food cheaper than junk, but I’m not anticipating that happening anytime soon. Many people in the US live in food deserts where healthy options are simply not available. They didn’t create those factors.
At my current job, I work very hard. But, I do have enough of a work/life balance that I can build and maintain healthy habits. My job permits me to go to the gym and gives me time to cook healthy food. Two years ago, this was not the case. I was burned out, occasionally working 12 hours per day in a high-stress and unsupportive environment. At the end of the day, I’d look up from my computer and realize that I hadn’t eaten all day. What did I do when I was too tired to shop and cook? I’d get Papa Johns, of course! For months at a time, I’d regularly eat 4 large pizzas per week because that felt like the only option available to me.
I didn’t choose to work under these conditions. They were forced upon me. Last year, I escaped the working conditions that were killing me. But not everyone has that privilege. My current weight-loss efforts are to a certain degree an effort to undo the damage inflicted upon my body by that job.
My health insurance isn’t very good, yet it still costs an arm and a leg. I’ve tried to get something that will give me better coverage, but I’ve actually been rejected twice in the past two years. I’m now applying to several other companies and I’m hopeful. Prayers would be appreciated. Simply put, for people with good insurance, staying healthy is a lot easier. But good insurance isn’t available to everyone.
There are also hormonal/environmental elements that are completely outside of our personal control.
I’ve listed the enormous factors that keep a healthy lifestyle out of reach for so many people. But, personal responsibility is still a factor. So, I’d like to mention a few things that I did on a personal level that made a difference.
I bought the Cadillac of salad spinners.
I learned a recipe for a vinaigrette that makes EVERYTHING taste better.
I bought an air fryer to make vegetables exceptionally delicious.
I also worked diligently to take advantage of the environmental factors I mentioned above. The fact that my city is walkable doesn’t mean that everyone is going to take advantage of that fact. The fact that healthy food is cheaper here doesn’t mean that everyone is going to eat better.
But in the grand balance, my hard work has produced results because of a lot of factors that were completely out of my control.
Yesterday, Christians around the world celebrated Easter (Except some Orthodox Christians for whom Easter comes on May 5 this year). I see in Easter an affirmation of bodies. Bodies are gross and weird. Most religions and philosophies dream of escaping bodies. But historic Christianity has consistently taught that bodies are a part of God’s good creation.
In the incarnation, the 2nd person of the Trinity “took on” a body. And, in the resurrection, that embodiedness of Jesus Christ was reaffirmed. Jesus did not escape his body after his death. He returned to it and restored it. That same body, according to Christian tradition, is currently seated at the right hand of God the Father. There are at least a few bodies in heaven (including Enoch, Elijah, and maybe Moses). Don’t ask me how they got there.
In the resurrection, I hear a call for Christians to work towards a world/church that values bodies and sees them as fundamentally good things. What would it take to make churches into spaces that are pro-body? How can the church make it easier for people to care for their bodies?
Speaking from personal experience, it is way easier to take care of a body that you love. Similarly, it is so easy to mistreat a body that you hate. Fat shaming makes it harder to stay healthy. Comments on someone’s body can often have a counter-productive effect.
In the resurrection, I see an affirmation of the fundamental goodness of bodies, both yours and mine. God loves your body and is planning to restore it in the final resurrection.
We live in a world that judges and shames bodies of all sorts while creating the conditions that make it so very hard to take care of bodies. I would like to see a world in which all bodies are treated with the value and respect they deserve. I think that God would like to see that too.